Goals and Such

Well, I think I'm making progress.
Working where I currently work, I feel very often that I'm not fulfilling my "calling," whatever that may be. But I wonder why in the world I feel that way if I don't even know what I'm supposed to be doing. At any rate, for 8 (sometimes 10...or more) hours a day at work, I constantly wonder when I'm going to be out of that place and on with my life, pursuing a CAREER.

I said all that to say this...I am going back to school. It's official. Some people don't have to go to school to be successful and happy. I thought I was one of those people. Rather, I hoped I was one of those people. But I'm okay with the fact that I'm not (even though part of me wishes I was) haha.

I hate school. With a passion, I'd say. But I'm learning more and more every single day that, frankly, it doesn't matter how much I hate it or am bad at it. I am CAPABLE, at least, to get it done. And I plan on it.

So I'm going to fill out all the necessary waste-of-time documents, hopefully get some good money to pay for it, and be on my way!

I graduated from high school in 2006. Back then, I thought I was going to graduate from college in 2010 or 2011. That just kinda bums me out to think that if I would've stuck with it...I would be done in a few months. But I can't think like that. I have to think about my future NOW. Plus...depending on where I go...I could be done not-too-far after my original "graduate from college" goal. I could bust my butt. I could work as hard as I could. And I would be done, and it wouldn't feel like it took that long, really. Which is cool to think about.

So that is what I'm gonna do. Meanwhile, I'm going to lose weight. Which is an entirely new undertaking for me. Because I've done it before...for a month or two...and then stopped. But since I got married only about a month ago, I've been thinking a lot about things. You know how they say, "What is there to look forward to now that the wedding is over?" Well, I haven't been dealing with that totally, cuz married life is fun fun fun! But, in a way...I have. Sean and I don't want kids (I'll blog about that one soon), and it'll be a pretty long while until we buy our first house. So I've caught myself feeling...dormant...(?) I don't know if that works there, but that is all I could think of. :) I love my life, my husband, EVERYTHING, I couldn't be more happier, but I know that I need to be DOING something with it.

Anyway, I am going to lose 65 pounds. *GASP* That's a lot of pounds to lose. But I look at it this way...It's really not. I know some people who have lost 100+ pounds, and pretty much have been doing it for YEARS, and will probably be doing it forever. And that's pretty dang inspiring I think. Anyway, if I lost just 5 pounds the first week, and 2 pounds every week after that...i would be at my goal weight in only 30 weeks/ 7 and a half months. That's only a little bit more than half a year. SOOO by my 1 year wedding anniversary, I could be in the best shape of my life! That's a cool thought! Maybe we could go on a cruise...oooh! That sounds fun!

Off to eat some homemade chocolate chip cookies! hehe...my weight loss journey starts April 5th!
Thanks for reading! Come back soon!